For someone who’s a compulsive blogger/writer, for someone who comes up with research ideas almost daily… I find it really difficult to write on command. As in, when someone does me the honor of asking me to write something for a particular place or location, or on a particular topic. I start out with loads of ideas and excitement and then…
Mental block, slight panic attack.
They chose me? Me! They want me to write for them! I wonder what I did to impress them? How do they want me to write this? What is the purpose of this?
What kind of effect do I want to have? Do I want someone to learn from reading it, or have an emotional reaction, or take some kind of action afterwards?
Do I want to wear my motherhood hat, my Egyptian postcolonial hat? My empowered semi-privileged hat? My open educator hat? My faculty development hat? My teacher-educator, researcher, MOOCaholic, feminist, aaaaaahhhhhh
Yeah. It’s the fourth time this happens in 2 months. It’s happened many times before. And it works out ok in the end. Definitely better than the online interviews 🙂 Because sometime in the past year I became a better writer than speaker (when I had always considered myself a better speaker; more spontaneous than reflective; when did this change? When I gave birth? When I was finishing my PhD? When I was writing up my thesis while caring for a child, and therefore using more mental faculties to write than to speak?). Anyway, the good news is: it’s an invite to write 🙂
Calm down, it’ll come to me. It takes a bit longer than my usual half hour per blogpost, but it’ll come. I’m sure. Something will inspire me soon.
But it makes me think of our students, who often don’t have the well-honed writing muscles we do. And then I think of giving them assignments where they have to follow a prompt. Loose or directed, it’s still some other person’s writing prompt. Then again, they’re not often comfortable with freewriting, either. I know because I have assessed classes where students are annoyed with the professor who asks them to write a short (like 300 word) journal/blogpost daily on anything, and it drives them nuts. I think the profs have the right idea, keep the kids’ writing muscle going. But I wonder if that practice helps them later write for more formal assignments?
When I started blogging i wondered if it would have a positive or negative influence on my academic writing. I’d say definitely positive in the sense it gives me more ideas and helps me develop them. Some end up published, others stay on the blog. But blogging has done something even better. It’s helped me collaborate with others in ways I had never expected, and writing became a form of connecting, not just a form of self-expression. Hey, maybe I’ll write about that 🙂 Not here 🙂 For that thing 😉