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Today, I was asked by someone, “do you know what the one thing is, you’ve been wanting for the past 15 or so years?”
My immediate response, “freedom.”
Their immediate response, “everything”.
And I realized two things at once there.
First of all, whatever it is I wanted, what I wanted more than anything was the “freedom to pursue whatever I wanted”. (Also a parenting epiphany, but that needs reflection later).
Second of all, the sarcasm with which the “everything” was said to me is so typical of patriarchal society… like wanting everything is not OK.
When what I’m trying to say is… give me freedom to pursue whatever I want, and you won’t really care if I want one thing or everything, because it won’t be dependent on any one other person.
I’m not naive. I know that technically freedom is almost always contingent upon other people and their own rights and duties.
But I suddenly do see something here – I see what Amartya Sen was on about and what many in the West are on about when (personal) freedom becomes an obsession within a collective/community.
I am also seeing why my culture struggles with it because individual wants (maybe especially of women and more particularly of moms) are not prioritized ahead of some collective goals (this is not always a bad thing, because we should not be selfish) and other individual goals (i.e. sacrificing self for our children – which again is not a bad thing per se, but each of us needs to have the freedom to choose which sacrifices and not have them dictated by another person or worse, by society and its norms).
Oh wow. This was a breath of fresh air for me. And now to stop and think about how I can deal with this as a parent. Firstly, how have I been stifling my child’s freedom? Secondly, how can I model a responsible way to reclaim her freedom as a female in this society, while remaining empathetic to others and sensitive to their needs…. but maintaining freedom of when to prioritize what…. and knowing the soft and hard boundaries of things. Perhaps I need to communicate where things are negotiable, when they aren’t, and why. So we can focus our energies on negotiating particular things and not others, if we’re consistently going to end up in the same place (like going to school!! See recent post on mornings on school days!)
These are much harder questions than I thought.