Really beautiful reflection Maha. You know I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately. I keep meaning to write my rhizo death post but I’m not sure it will come now. Since I have no children I often think of my little creations (my writing, photography, etc.) as births – little pieces of me that will stick around for a little while after I am gone. I fear that rhizo death post may be stillborn which is sad but in some way fitting with the whole thing.

“The irony of man’s condition is that the deepest need is to be free of the anxiety of death and annihilation; but it is life itself which awakens it, and so we must shrink from being fully alive.” ~ Earnest Becker, Denial of Death

I’m not sure I completely agree with Becker here. I think he is right-on up till the end of this quote (which is a nice tight summary of his thinking on this imo). I’m not sure that we must shrink from being fully alive – I think that there is another option. For me it is to stare into that need to be free of an anxiety of death and with the anxiety itself and sit with it. Turn it over and examine it. Strive to live that life that is fully alive purposefully so that you can awaken that anxiety – to examine it. It is terrifying actually but that anxiety is not good or bad; it just is – and that is okay. I’m still learning about it but I think there is more to be gained by facing it than turning away.

Jason Silva says we defy entropy with our films and our pomes. I think he is of the same thought process here as I am with my little births meaning that we create little parts of ourselves that will continue on with our art and creative pieces. And while I have a hard time disagreeing with Jason, I think we also defy death by simply living that full life despite the fear of death. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yb-OYmHVchQ